Friday, April 11, 2008

Funny Noises



I find myself making a lot of funny noises lately. I will just be walking along or in the shower or sitting at my desk at work and something will come over me, I'll think of the moment Mary called with news that Noah was our son, or the moment I ran back into the house to tell Anil and we hugged like never before, and I will choke up and a squeal or a gasp or a deep breath with audio will just escape from my mouth before I realize it. It's so strange, and sort of embarrassing. I told Mary on Wednesday when she called that I was discovering sounds I didn't realize were hidden within me. They aren't exactly the most attractive sounds or altogether pleasant to the ear, even my own, but they are chalk full of emotion and glee, that much I know.

Since learning that we had passed court came 2 days ago, we have officially hit whirlwind mode. Nothing could have prepared us for this. We leave to meet our son and bring him home 2 weeks from tomorrow. That is just impossible for me to really comprehend, even though I booked the plane tickets and I continue to feverishly search for an affordable place for us to lay our heads at night.

It's still not sinking in, but slowly, with every gasp and nervous laugh, I am realizing that this is all too real and it's not going away. We have a son. And that is the most brilliant and exhilarating thing that has ever happened to me in my life.

I want to blog more about my LA shower. I just want to document here how phenomenal it was. I'm going to try to get to that this weekend. And of all things, my family is throwing me a shower in IL next weekend. So this weekend is the only one we have to organize and pack – it's going to be pretty intense. But we are so motivated, so ready to be parents, so beside ourselves with excitement, I have no doubt that it will all get done. We are also fortunate enough to have terrific friends willing to help, so life is exceptional and truly, unbelievably good.

I started on his closet last night - cleaned out the mess that was in there and started hanging his little clothes. A labor of love.

11 comments:

Shmuel said...

i LOVE YOUR WRITEINGS

Kalar said...
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Danni and Tommy said...

Ohhhh! It's all just so exciting! I am so happy for you. Can't wait! Can't wait!

The Roberts Family said...

Hey!, I don't see your email anywhere ... you can email me ... robertsfamily@mlgc.com ~Shelly

Melodie Monberg said...

I've been reading your blog for a while now. I lived in Addis Ababa with my missionary parents in the 90s and we are in the process of adopting our baby girl from there (hopefully we'll have her this fall!).

While I was there, several European families stayed at the SIM Mission Guesthouse near the Black Lion Hospital. It is near the Piazza and Hilton Hotel. They serve great meals and the accomodations are clean and safe. Might be a good, inexpensive place to check out. SIM International runs this guesthouse!

Melodie

www.themonbergs.com

LISA said...

The sounds are of pure emotion!!

Jill Coen said...

Congratulations! Not sure which blog brought me to your blog, but I wanted to say hello. We got through court today and will travel 2 weeks from tomorrow as well. Yeah!!! Maybe we'll see you in Addis...
jill :)

Rebecca said...

i am thinking of you guys pretty much constantly these days! i am so excited for you all that i can hardly stand it!!

Tami said...

I'm so glad all of this has gone so fast and well for you! How exciting! I can't wait to read more! Congrats!

Ted and Lori said...

Beautifully written :)

Kristy -Mom to 4 and soon to be more! said...

Oh, what a wonderful thing! Hang on Noah, Mom & Dad are coming!!!! Woo Hoo! :-)
Blessings,
Kristy